SUPERWOMAN

I'm not, superwoman. I'm trying to figure it out. Is it even possible to work, love your babes, cook for everyone & have a clean house?

I was able to actually put some grub on the table a few times lately but steer clear of the laun_ry rooms & the bathrooms. They look like something blew up in there.

As you can see I'm still missing a letter...it's kin_ of like a metaphor for my life. I've got some of it in or_er but there's just something missing & it looks a little funny.

I will progress. It will get easier, right? RIGHT?

WOW!

Too much to complete, too little time.


yikes!

IN_EPEN_ ANCE _AY!

Wow. I just realize_ something. But I have to insert a warning here. Not about what I just realize_ but about my computer. I have a key that _oesn't work all of the su__en. Guess which one it is. _ang it! Anyhoo, I have to tell you something. Well, tell me something so that I can always remember it.

Here it is.

I've been feeling sorry for myself. All worke_ up over going to work an leaving my ki_s home an_ losing my workout time an_ my leisure space an_ other stuff...etc. In short, I've been a big baby about having to grow up an I'm not, I'm not, I'm not happy about it. Actually, I'm excite_ about the job I was very blesse_ to get but haven't been able to wrap my hea_ aroun_ all the change.

BUT!

Lately, I've become "in the know" about a few people's lives who are struggling, an_ reaching out, an_ telling me stuff. I've ha_ the opportunity to insert my very small amount of wis_om with the issues they are _ealing with. So, this morning I thought to myself. "Wow, I'm really helping these people." I got a little puffe_ up but then very quickly it struck me that the whole reason for this strange situation is two-fol_ . One, because these people have really nee_e_ something right now an_ I was able to give it to them. Two, I nee_e_ to realize that while there is a lot going on right now, I HAVE learne_, an_ I HAVE grown, an_ I HAVE been blesse_ in the trials I've face_ over the years an_ my life coul_ be 100 times har_er. I might just make it through this one, too.

Thank you.

Thank you.

Thank you.

ACTION!

RUN! JUMP! POSE! SPLASH!



AND RELAX...

Shell-shocked.

Have you ever had a close call? Something terrible that ALMOST happened? I once sat on the porch with my dad, as Lincoln ran in front of a car, too far away to re-act with anything other than a scream. My heart began to beat like drums in my chest until he was safe. Then, I kind of just sat there, numb.

That's how I feel today. Life has been crazy, lately. Lots of changes, and activity and planning and plotting and thinking and growing. I am now a soon-to-be working mother and beginning July 8th life, as we know, is over. It should be good for us. We should all grow and become stronger. I hope. For now though, it's tough to think about. Ty has been the one to express every one's thoughts..."You mean, you are going to be a fake mother instead of a real mother?"

I don't know where he got that but it's sad to me. Very sad. I need to work. For many reasons. But I want my kids to know I'm still their mother and I will always take care of them.

p.s. this post is not to meant to offend or make any statement whatsoever about mothering. it is only to express the stress and fear of this huge change in our lives.

RAIN

The best thing about a lot of rain is...PUDDLES. Big ones. This weird bright light peeked through the clouds for a few minutes today and we played. Oh, how we played. I was the photog and the look-out. I snapped while the kids ran, splashed and peddled through this puddle. Then, they scattered out of the foot deep puddle (in some places) and onto the sidewalk when I yelled, "Car!"

Afterwards, we dripped our way into the laundry room, stripped wet clothes off our bodies, put on dry clothes, and settled into the couch to await our cooling yellow butter cake. Boy, it was tasty.

Here's an interesting note...I went outside a couple of hours later to return a redbox and guess what?!?! Out puddle is 100% GONE! Completely dried up. I'm not even kidding!

It's ok though, the forecast calls for more rain and thunderstorms this week. Our puddle will be back soon.

Cress Creek

My friend Carol and I have decided to try some outings with the kids. Today was our first one together; we went hiking. This is what it looks like when we get together.